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2024년, 10월 29일

Vivian Ahn
– @vixxxenahn_✦

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↳ added a note: more info 5'8 ft, speaks english + korean, blood type B loves cats, hippos, clothes, partying, motorcycles, fashion hates her dad, mac n cheese, invasive people

↳ position #rapper #vocalist #model

↳ added a personality: no sense of self
Shaped by a painful past that left her wary of trust and genuine affection. Hardened by neglect and mistreatment, she developed a cold exterior, often seeming distant and unapproachable to those around her. Deep down, however, Vivian craves connection and closeness, but years of exposure to toxic relationships have blurred her understanding of what love and comfort should feel like. She has learned to express affection by giving her body, as that was the only "currency" of love she was shown. In her eyes, vulnerability equates to physical intimacy, and while this often brings temporary relief, it leaves her feeling empty and misunderstood. She struggles to express her emotions in any other way, leading her into a cycle of superficial relationships. Vivian frequently finds herself drawn to chaotic, unhealthy relationships. Seeking comfort in familiar pain, she falls for people who mirror the neglect and turbulence of her past. She’s aware of this self-destructive pattern but finds herself unable to break free, as the chaos feels like home. This makes her vulnerable to people who take advantage of her, yet she often rationalizes these situations, convincing herself that this is the best she can hope for.

↳ cont : ... Despite all this, Vivian has a sense of loyalty to the few people she lets see more into her life, even if they aren’t the best influences. In her eyes, this version of herself is easier to handle; it gives her a sense of control and shields her from being hurt by others. She’s spent years hiding behind her bitchy party-girl image, finding comfort in choatic friendships and shitty relationships that never ask her to be more than what she presents on the surface.. Yet, she has no clue who she in, she struggles with her identity and it eats her alive.

↳ added a backstory: ???
Vivian Ahn grew up in streets of New York City, where the relentless pulse of the city. Born into a household marked by neglect, Vivian’s parents were caught in the throes of addiction. Her father, a charismatic but unfaithful man, often brought home the smell of alcohol, only to leave a wake of emotional devastation in his path. While he never laid a hand on Vivian, the scars of witnessing his violence toward her mother were indelible. She would watch, helpless and afraid, as the love between her parents shattered, leaving her mother fragile and desperate. As a child, Vivian found herself yearning for affection in a home that offered little more than chaos and conflict. Her mother, overwhelmed by her own demons, often turned a blind eye to her daughter’s needs. Often coping with her problems with heavy substances. The nights grew longer and darker as Vivian learned to fend for herself, her heart slowly hardening against the pain. When her mother vanished one night, leaving behind nothing but a letter telling Vivian she was sorry, and she was forced to navigate life with her erratic father.
At just twelve years old, feeling lost and desperate for connection, Vivian sought solace in the streets of New York. She quickly fell in with a rough crowd of people much older than her. Parties and clubs became her refuge, where the thrill of music and recklessness drowned out her loneliness. Yet, what started as innocent exploration soon spiraled into a darker path. The parties and drugs that once promised escape became a heavy chain, dragging her deeper into misery. The once exciting thrill of the nightlife turned hollow and dark, as she was exposed to toxic influences and found herself entangled with older men who preyed on her vulnerability and youth. Each encounter with these men left her feeling emptier, a stark reminder of the family that had failed to protect her.

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Its as if she grew up fast, trying to be grown and sexy at a young again. Vivian discovered the intoxicating thrill of being desired at a young age, but each encounter only deepened her sense of emptiness. She adapted to the chaos around her while desperately trying to fill the void left by her parents’ neglect. It was relentless cycle of partying and self-destruction, a desperate attempt to escape the haunting memories of a fractured childhood. No one tried saving her, no one cared that she was just a girl acting like a grown adult. Now as an adult, she acts like a grown child, unsure of how to express herself normally.
When she was seventeen, she met someone who, unexpectedly, would become important in her life: her half-brother, Jayden Cho. He was abandoned by their father even before his birth, Jayden was raised by a different mother and largely unaware of the turbulent life Vivian had been enduring. Despite their differences and the years of estrangement, a strong bond formed between them almost instantly. In Jayden, Vivian found the family she had always wanted but had never known. For the first time, she felt like she had someone who genuinely cared for her. At eighteen, Vivian took a leap and moved to Korea, the transition was difficult, as everything around her felt foreign and unfamiliar, but she had Jayden—a piece of her own fractured family to lean on. She bounced between small, low-paying jobs, barely scraping by, but it wasn’t enough to make ends meet.
By the time she turned nineteen, her financial struggles caught up to her, and she found herself homeless. Desperate and with nowhere else to go, she ended up crashing at Jayden’s dorm for a bit. Eventually, Vivian found a place to stay, she moved in with her best friends. They weren’t necessarily the best influences—still clinging to some of the same party scenes and wild behaviors she’d tried to leave behind—but at least she had people around her.